Everyday: My Poetry

everyday

my poetry

Hello People!

I'm presenting you today with another one of my poems. 
I think I'm going to start posting a poem every Sunday because it's a simple way for me to relax, and hopefully a relaxing thing for y'all to read. 

Once again, I hope you take this as you wish and enjoy it as well. 

Let's hop in. 

Prior 

Heart climbing out of my throat

Focus on breathing

Prescription...I have it

Take one; wait patiently

Awkward air

Still; wait patiently 

Awkward air

Waiting for the escape

Slowly pealing back corners of the pages

It's smoke deciding which windows to leave from

Asking Questions

Begging my brain for answers

No Talking 

It hit

Thanks for the Read!
Deepest love, 

Paige 

Travel: Traveling with Anxiety

travel

traveling with anxiety

Okay friends, for this post I'm just going to slap on my journaling from when I was on the plane that way you get the real deal. The in the moment thoughts. 

Here we go.

Paige

August 11th, 2015

Tuesday

First thing is first, I'm not the realest, I'm the most terrified. Yesterday was hell because I couldn't control my anxiety. I mean, it's not like I've ever been able to control it, but yesterday I just couldn't shake it. I'm pretty sure it's because of the whole traveling thing. I don't do well with this because I have nothing but time on my hands and nothing in my hands to fill the time. That's hen it's the worst. when I have free time and nothing to do. My mind goes right to every little anxious thought it can come up with. Like I've said before, I don't know if i have much to say that will help, but putting out my experience could help somebody know they aren't alone in what they are feeling. With that being said, what I want from you guys is to comment down below this post and share what helps you fill your time while you travel, or even just on a day to day basis. 

The huge deal with my anxiety is that I get overwhelmingly nauseous, and in reality it's not just when I travel. It's constant. From the time I wake up until I close my eyes for the night the nausea from  my anxiety is there. It's really the worst, but let's get back to travel anxiety... I also think a lot of my anxiety from travel comes because I don't know what to expect. There's a lot of unknown with traveling and unknown is scary for me. This mooring was really the worst because I woke up from a not so great sleep, got ready, and then had to wait on everybody else to get prepared. Once again, just time. 

The two and a half hour ride to the airport was nothing, but I took a Benadryl and slept the whole way there. I felt way less anxious when we finally got to the airport because we were busy checking in and going through security and all of that jazz. I even felt a little excited and felt ready to go while we were boarding the plane. As soon as I sat down in my seat though it came back, and boy was it raging. Deep breaths. That's the only thing that helped. Because I had control over something, my breathing, I felt better. We are up in the air now and I still feel kind of nauseous, but I managed to get some crackers down that way I don't have a tummy that is anxious and nauseous. 

I wish I was more help for you guys reading this with the same problem, but hey, I'm still learning too. I just hope I'm alright once we land. It's a two hour drive from the airport to the house we are staying in, so I'm hoping to sleep on the way there. For now I'm just going to try and relax and get some pictures for you of the lovely view I have. I got a window seat (: 

Well guys, there you have it. The real deal. How everything went down for me. I do have good news! It got better after the 2nd or 3rd day and I was having a great time in Colorado. ANXIETY FREE! I plan on uploading a photo diary tomorrow of some of the things we did. 

Keep on keeping on,

Paige 

Health: MENTAL HEALTH

Mental Health 

For me mental health is a huge part, and really the beginning to, my overall well being. Mental health is something that I struggle with and something I think everybody has at least been exposed to it. I struggle with depression and anxiety, and I will get into that more maybe if anybody asks me to. I really just want to be able to bring it to peoples attention that it is real and I want to be able to help people that are struggling as well. When it comes to my depression a lot of the time my breakdowns will just happen out of no where or because of something small. You can't always know when it's coming and that is one of the worst parts of it. You feel so out of control. My depression is the biggest reason I didn't blog over the weekend. I haven't been able to do much to help keep it at bay, but I am trying some things and thought I would share them with you. 

Fighting Depression and Anxiety

Like I said, recently I've been struggling a lot with my depression and today my anxiety has been acting a little funny, so I thought i would share some of what I've been doing to help a little. The first thing that has helped is keeping my environment clean. Even if the rest of the house isn't in the best shape as long as my room is clean then I have a space I can go to to calm down and not feel overwhelmed. With that being said, alone time has also helped. I never would have thought this because I always feel like if I'm trying to be happy with people I will feel better, but in all reality sometimes you just need a break. The best tip I have to help with calming down is to take a bath and allowing for quiet time. I can't even explain what it does. Give yourself an evening or day of pampering and relaxation and you'll be sure to feel better. There are even some DIY recipes for bath bombs on youtube. I'll link one of my favorite youtube videos showing a great Pamper Routine. 

If you have any questions leave them down below or if you just want to talk leave a comment and I will definitely reply! If i get enough questions I might film a question and answer video/tips and trick for fighting depression and anxiety.

With all good wishes,

Paige